Family!!

haha old picture! too cute!!
So lately I have been thinking about how blessed I am to have the family that I do. we may fight, bicker, belittle, ignore each other at times but with that comes the laughter, jokes (uh hum not always great ones..dad..;] ), love, and good times that we will always remember. ya know when you were little and you just wished you could have had a different family or what it would be like to be the only child.. well I used to think that sometimes but now its totally different! how boring would that life have been!! others may look at us and be like wow disfunctional but I look at us and see, yes disfunctional, but happy and nothing but love. as we have grown older, and lives have all started to head in different directions, I see my family totally different then what I used to. I sometimes wish we can turn back time and have us all together again and have less time arguing or hating each other and more time being together and just having a good time all the time. but life is life and as we live and grow, we learn whats most important and are able to see a little clearer. growing up me and my sister did not get along and thats somewhat of an understatement. I dont think she ever realized how much I looked up to her even though she was a brat most of the time. hey when there is only two sisters among a group of boys, you wanna stick together, right?!?! but as we both are growing up, I look up to her even more. ya we still fight but I know that she loves me and I love her. She is my guiding light at times and its pretty reassuring. we even get pimples in the same spots! weird!! ha ha and now I get three other awesome people in my life. each one brings something different to our family and its makes it that much more awesome! we all bring different things to the table and there is never a dull moment. I just hope they all know how much they mean to me and how I wouldnt want it anyother way. besides we get to be together for all eternity, so we better start liking each other or else eternity will seem that much longer! =] ha ha.
Ricky- I love you! thanks for being an awesome person inside and out and never giving up. you showed me how to be brave and think outside the box.
Christina- my dearest sister.. I love you! thanks for always being there and helping me get through my challenges. thanks for all the laughs and the thrills. hey remember the lazy man light switch?!?!
Matt- I love you! thanks for showing me how to just keep going and being an example of how to just be you no matter what.
Kevin- I love you!! thanks for being my buddy and always being there to count on. you have always been there to lean on and I dont think you even know it! thanks for being the one I can laugh with and just be goofy with!
Mom- words cant explain how much I love you! you are my rock and my foundation. you have always always been there for me and for all the kids! you truly are an example to me in many ways! you show me how much a mothers love can extend and grow and how a mother should be. sometimes you might feel like you havent been such a great mom, but your lieing to yourself. you are a strong woman and I love that!
Daddy- you come off to other people as intimidating but I know your just a soft cuddly teddy bear! I love you!! you are truly an example to me and that even if love isnt always expressed it doesnt mean its not there. you are the cornerstone to this family, a key component, and I wouldnt want it any other way! you taught me how to be goofy and fun loving but also how to be firm and be able to say when enough is enough. you are an amazing person!

I could go on and on but im sure ya'll dont want to have me keep going. anyway this may seem sappy or just weird to some but its nice to finally have it all out and to have it recorded. just remember that family is important and they will always be here for you. when all the world steps out or away, thats when your family moves in even closer to you! if you havent told them that you love them then maybe its time. they dont always know that you do, and a reminder is nice every once in awhile.

thinkin...

So life lately has been pretty good I cant complain too much! I just recently took my first biology test so we will see how that goes! I have been focusing on school and work lately and havent had much of a social life. this last week I went back to Theta and had a blast! it is a lot of fun and all the friends I have met through there are simply amazing! lately though I have just wanted to spend time with my family and just be around them. I feel that if I go do something else I would miss out on something ya know. The social scene doesnt call my name as much. but I will go to Theta when I can and have a social life that way! Last sunday was the SUPER BOWL against the saints and colts, saints won. but that wasnt the point of sunday. Sunday I heard my lil nephew Raiden say his first word which is "dada"!!! it was so freakin cute! man I miss that lil boy!! he is so big and can do so many things its crazy how fast he is growing up and makin me sad because we didnt get to see alot of it! but no worries they are moving back in APRIL!!! im so excited for that!! then the family will be complete again and its going to be awesome!! this post is just kinda random just fyi!! I also got my hair cut on saturday and its a lil odd but it looks pretty cute curled so maybe ill just curl it everyday!! ha ha not!! but hair is hair and it will grow back so I just hope it hurries!! ha ha anyway I also had one friend finally realize how strong she is and it makes me so happy knowing that she finally realizes some of her potential!! she rocks my socks!! I hope to someday be as strong as she is! I love you too the moon and back! Ill end this lil post with this quote: "Today you are you, that is truer then true. there is no one alive that is youer then you!!" Dr Suess

ok so last post was not that happy but it feels better to get it all out sorta!! ha ha but christmas is almost here and I am super excited! I am so blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life that care and want to make sure everyone is well taken care of even if they themselves are struggling. To them and to everyone I say thank you!! I love you!! well anywho this doesnt go with the rest of the post but I found this quote today randomly and I really like it! so here it is, I dont know the author though!
Cinderella walked on broken glass.
Sleeping Beauty let a whole lifetime pass.
Belle fell in love with a hideous beast.
jasmine married a common thief (or others say its: Jasmine could have anyone instead
She married a common man)
Ariel walked on land for love and life.
Snow White barely escaped a knife.
It was all about blood, sweat, and tears,
Because love is about facing all of your fears.
I really liked it so I just thought I would share!! and I'll leave everyone with these quotes for the holidays, Courtesy of Buddy the Elf:
The best way to spread christmas cheer is singing loud for all to hear!
Im singing im in a store and im singing, im in a store and im siiinnngggiiinng!
you sit on a throne of lies, You stink, You smell like beef and cheese, you dont smell like santa!
I just like to smile, Smilings my favorite!
last but not least: SANTA, oh my gosh, SANTA is coming! IKNOW HIM!! IKNOW HIM!!

confused as ever!! oh dear....

Have you ever had moments when you second guess decisions you made?? well im having one of those moments... alot. the beginning of the summer I made a decision because it felt right. I knew that was the right decision I needed to make at that time. I am so confused and I just wish I could sort out what im feeling. At times I still feel like that litte girl who is confused in the world and not the responsible twenty year old im suppose to be. so many questions and little to no answers. I have been dreaming more lately then I can remember dreaming and they make me wake up more confused. Who knows if its just my hormones going all wacky, I am a girl it is a possibility. I just wish I had more answers and felt like I knew where im going with my life and findin that one person who will complete me. like I said so many questions yet the answers seem to be lost......

Its Been Awhile!

so its been quite awhile! this summer has been crazy and has come to an end! it consisted of working, working, playing, and going to see my nephew-which was pretty much the highlight of my summer! now its school time and its getting to the point where I'm slacking off! ha ha no bueno I know! I joined a sorority- Lamba Delta Sigma and my chapter is Theta! I am loving it!! that is pretty much my social life since I work and then go to school! but never the less I am loving life right now! I am slowly starting to realize the reasons of why staying home was the right option even though it was kind of forced and I didnt want too. I am learnin so much about myself and how the Lord works. yes I heard it all the time and still do that the Lord works on his time but I didnt think it applied to me! little did I know I was wrong-- oh so wrong!! the Lord has a plan for me and I need to be more willing to let this plan happen instead of saying to him I have my own plan and its whats gonna work for me. I guess I need to realize the bigger picture! granted I still have my days where I am down in the dumps and just wished it worked out my way but then I just look around me and see the beauty that is there. I get to be with my family, I get to be more involved, and I get more freedom. So I guess its Lord 5 billion- Megan 0! Im trying to get better about updating this thing even if it happens to be something totally random but hey its my "journal" and im a random person so it will fit me perfectly! =D well until next time! I will leave with this thought-" Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans." ----John Lennon

Letters

So I got this awesome letter today and I dont even know who its from! I love getting letters, whats more special then that?!? it always brightens peoples days and is always a pick me up! they always seem to come at the right time too! so I have decided im going to write letters more often! anywho I just wanted to write about how awesome I thought it was. thank you to whomever sent it! much love!

I got this in an email from a friend and I really liked it so I thought I would share!!

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that
person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need
you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with
guidance and support,

To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an
end..

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire
fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.


Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has
come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.


LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional
foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson,

love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other
relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

Thank you for being a part of my life,

whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.