life lesson learned.

Just because I have an opinion on something doesnt mean I need to share it. There is a time and place for everything. There has been so much contention and opinion sharing going on this last little while. A large part due to me. its caused nothing but stress and bitter feelings towards others. Just because I dont like something someone is doing or what choices they are making in their lives doesnt mean I have to share it. I now see how the adversary can take hold of a situation. I know they really understand my weaknesses and know the holes in my armor and how to use it against me. With all these feelings inside of me, I turned away from the one true comfort I knew of- Heavenly Father and prayer. its not really funny but is because I stopped praying because I was ashamed of how I was feeling and how it got a hold of me but I wouldnt admit that to myself until now. I just didnt feel like he wanted to hear from me and all my bitterness. I didnt want to say sorry or feel sorry because I was right and thats that. It was slowly rotting my insides and after tonight I can see what damage has been done. I see my flaws and my wrong doings and now have to make them right. I cant take back my action but I can try to make things better, to make them right. Heavenly Father has been there for me through my toughest times and loneliest times and I owe it to him to do what I can to make things better. If only I could be more like him, slowly but surely I can get there. I have to work to fix the kinks in my armor and not let the adversary get a hold of me. Im not perfect and I know I will screw up again but thats why we are here to learn from our mistakes and to improve ourselves. I also have my sister to thank. when im not making her mad or whatever she is there for me to unload everything on and takes it like a champ. I dont know what I would do without her, I would probably explode with all the emotion that I had to keep in. I was lucky enough and blessed to have her as my sister and am eternally grateful for it. Its funny the way things work out. sometimes we go about things the wrong way and it makes for a hard situation but I know I learn a great deal from it, and I always seem to take the hard way but I guess I have a lot more to learn.