juy 24th weekend

So I actually got to go somewhere. crazy I know. It was just a little trip for Kevins graduation but it was just what I needed! We were suppose to go to Mesquite but that didnt work out, not gonna lie I was a little bummed when I found out that the alternative was Park City. Really why there, but I would go anyway. And it was a good thing that I did. it was a short trip but a very fun one! Friday we went and walked around the Tanger outlets, which I mean shopping come on, love it! We stopped at there little food place and I got a pretzel while everyone else got pretzel dogs-gross! Funniest part is we got drinks but they were more like mini coolers, those suckers were huge!! ha ha we all gave Christina a hard time. it was great! After walking all the way around we went and checked into the hotel. After a lil napping by some we headed out and looked at the new shopping center they have built up there. It was neat, they had a lot of cool little stores, one I liked was a toy store- it was like every little kids dream. We ended up eating at a place called Redrock.. I think.. it had a lot of healthy stuff but it was good! Saturday we got up early and didnt make it out the door all that early but we went up to the park city resort and checked it out. they have the alpine slide, zip line, and the coaster. They all looked really fun to do but are kinda pricey! we ended up just going on the chair lifts up and did a "scenic" ride. it was way pretty up there and it was fun riding on the chairlifts. once we got up to the top we hiked around a little and went back down. going down was a little scary! the chair lift would stop and we just be hanging there really high. that wasnt so much fun! but I survived! ha ha after that we went and walked down main st. That was a lot of fun! its just a whole bunch of little shops and art galleries, and restaurants put together. very very cool! I dont ever remember going down main st so it was fun to do! we ate at this pizza and pasta place, main st pizza, or something to that effect, and it was really good! it was really good and not greasy which i liked! After walking down main st we went over to the Olympic park and watched some skiers practicing and they landed in a pool. it was pretty cool to see and they were really good! then to the side of us some people had paid to do the same thing but obviously they were on a smaller ramp. it was a lot of little kids and they were so fun to watch! after being there for awhile we called it a day, but not after getting some cold stone ice cream of course! I ended getting fried because sunscreen wasnt on my mind so i didnt bring it. Much to Joshs humor, it was another thing to tease me about. its all good tho, he has it coming! ha ha it was a short but much needed weekend. All thanks to my lovely sister and bro in law. Sadly now its back to reality and getting my butt in gear. but im so ready for another get away. Pictures coming soon since they are all on my sisters camera. Much love.

yesterday

Yesterday wasnt my day.. i burnt my finger on very hot plastic, which was way fun.. haha and my hip bones are permanent bruises. But I did have fun so luckily the day wasnt so bad. Im just lucky nothing else happened. yay go me and my bad self! Ha ha Also I love spending time with my family. never a dull moment which I love. Oh and its hot, im literaly roasting. Oh well we wanted summer and boy is it here. I do love Utah but it always goes from one extreme to another. Anywho Im going to try harder to write on here.. even if it is random, I want to have something, document my day. We will see how it goes! =] Much love!
"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, I could really use a wish right now." one of my new favorite songs..

Each life that touches ours for good...

Each time I hear that song I cry, I cant even sing the first few words without tearing up and crying. My sister was talking today and was telling me and my mom about a family that just had a daughter commit suicide. I immediately shut down. anytime this subject gets brought up, I feel myself shut down. I listen but I make my self stop feeling anything. Its a subject thats too close to my heart. I cant even explain how I feel for this family that is going through this. Its not something that I wish upon anyone. And for that girls friends, been there, by far one of the worst experiences in my life. Not a week goes by that I dont think of her. I know she is in a better place but it still doesnt close that aching feeling in my heart. Its not as heart shattering as it first was but there is still that void, a piece that is missing. A couple months after she died, I had a dream about her. She was happy, I hadnt seen her truly happy in quite awhile. She was smiling her unique smile and she was asking how her family was. She told me not to worry and she just kept smiling. Only Heavenly Father knew how much I needed that, How much that would help me heal. I still feel the ache but its softened by the knowledge the gospel brings into my life. I miss her and the goofy times we had together. The summer where we used to go and help her mom at the elementary. we were so young, yet she had seen and experienced more then anyone her age should have to. She confided in me and I in turn tried to help carry her burden, even if it was a small portion. I was there for her to talk to and am lucky and blessed that she did but afterwards I didnt feel like it was enough. maybe if I had called her more or talked to her more or called her the day before like she asked me too, the situation would have changed. I know in my heart that it wouldnt, but im only human. Its been three years, yet it feels like it was just yesterday. She was one of my best friends, she was what I needed in my life at that time. She was that shooting star that so many wish to see and only few do, and are lucky that they do. Only in my life for a short time in our perspective, but long enough to do good. Im eternally greatful for the time I had with her and have so many memories to look back on and smile. always a memory of her living and breathing, smiling. Halloween, summers, ready aim fire, chicken little, girls camp, boys, polos, dancing, the list goes on. I love you!

1. Each life that touches ours for good
Reflects thine own great mercy, Lord;
Thou sendest blessings from above
Thru words and deeds of those who love.

2. What greater gift dost thou bestow,
What greater goodness can we know
Than Christlike friends, whose gentle ways
Strengthen our faith, enrich our days.

3. When such a friend from us departs,
We hold forever in our hearts
A sweet and hallowed memory,
Bringing us nearer, Lord, to thee.

4. For worthy friends whose lives proclaim
Devotion to the Savior’s name,
Who bless our days with peace and love,
We praise thy goodness, Lord, above.

Raidens 1st Birthday

So this last saturday we had Raidens 1st birthday party! I cant believe he is 1!!! Everyone met at Murray park and enjoyed a nice lunch and birthday present opening. it was a combined birthday with his cousin Graham. Both lil boys seemed to enjoy their presents and all the attention. When it was time for them to dig into their cake, Raiden didnt want his cake he wanted to share Grahams cake! He is a funny kid, all he wanted to do was play with his little Tonka toy. He is growing up so fast, its like where has the time gone! oh and my sister made me the photographer for her camera.. it was a joy.. just kidding it was ok! ha ha here are a couple of pics..

Fathers..

so since it was fathers day awhile ago and my daddys birthday, I thought he should have his own special post. I love my pops a lot. He has done a lot for not just me but everyone. he trys to act tough or intimidating but he is just a soft cuddly teddy bear! ;] He is a funny one with his oh so awesome jokes.. and stories. When I first started working he worked his schedule around mine so I would have a way to work, even though it was sometimes a pain, he did it anyways. I told him awhile ago that I dont remember him much when I was little but thats not entirely true. He used to take me and kevin to elementary. he made sure we were dressed and ready to go.. even if we werent looking to fashionable.. ha ha. he used to always have something to snack on after school.. from breadsticks to his infamous biscuits. ha ha Those countless summer trips when we would just drive to what I thought were random places but they werent. That one time we drove to Idaho and got Burger King and drove back home.. Im glad to have a wonderful daddy and he makes one heck of a grandpa too. He stepped into that role with ease! Raiden and Hannah are lucky! Most of all I just want to say how much I love this old man.. ok he isnt that old I just like giving him a hard time! much love daddy!

Update..

Ok wow I havent been on here in FOREVER!!! well to update on my June... It started off with the whole family coming and Kevin Graduating!!! I was super super excited to see everyone but to also see kevin graduate. its crazy to think he is graduated. I love when we get to spend time with the whole familia! Then both Raiden and Hannah were blessed. What a wonderful thing. i am so glad that all the men in my family hold the priesthood and use it. It was such a special day having both of them blessed and to have family all around. the whole weekend was family oriented and I LOVED IT!!! My Aunt Debbie had the privilege of getting her endownments out while she was here too. such a special occasion. I didnt get to go to the temple with them but I know what a blessing that was. While they did that me, grandma, and kevin watched baby hannah. i love when I get to spend time with my grandma she is an amazing person! it was sad to see everyone leave but I know that we will see them again. oh and also we celebrated dads birthday.. he is an old man now! ha ha. I dont really remember what else happened that month but I know it was a good one!